It's almost summer. It's finally starting to feel like it. Before, I kept seeing the nice weather and wondering how long it was going to last. Now, it's finally sinking in that the sun is going to shine for a while. I'm not complaining.
I'm in a weird mood. I've been like this for a while now. I'm not sure how to describe it. I think I'm frustrated. Frustrated with myself for the failures that I've had in my life. I feel as though I'm not where I should be at this stage in my life and it's all because I've been lazy and complacent.
It's been bothering me lately. I haven't had a proper way to vent and it's been building up. It's just kind of made me angry all the time. I think I've done a good job of not showing it, well, for the most part. Kelly has been telling me lately that I've been moody and snapping at her a lot.
I'm not proud of that. I don't like that the only place I can show how angry I am is when I'm around the only person I don't want to be angry around.
I'm trying to make some positive changes in my life. I've been looking for a job. A real job. A career job.
I applied for a position with the Bluefield Daily Telegraph about a month ago, but I didn't get it. A couple days ago, I put in an application with my old hometown newspaper, The Jackson Herald. There was an open position for a sports writer, so I figured why not?
I haven't really thought through the ramifications of if I get the job or not. Ripley, where the Herald operates out of, is two hours away from here. I'm not really holding out hope that I get the job. I'm just kind of seeing what happens.